February 2008

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I’m slowing down
I’m getting old
It’s New Years Eve
And my Baby’s crying
And I’m still trying
To make sense of it all

We play our games
Through troubled times
We’ve shared the best of things
Things gone past
Keep on moving on
Staying sane

All of these angels, All of these angels
They keep me moving on, when I’m down on myself
All of these angels, All of these angels
Watching over me, when I’m down and out

I count my cards
My blessings too
I miss my family
As the year rolls by
I’ll lie along at night
For the hundredth time

So many days
I’ve been away
My son is growing up
Without me there
But we’ll keep sailing on
‘Till I’m somebody else

All of these angels, All of these angels
They keep me moving on, when I’m down on myself
All of these angels, All of these angels
Watching over me, when I’m down and out

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Get up, get out

It’s going to be alright
I’m going to find the time
To make it up to you
We’re going to see it through the way
We’re going to make it our day

To get up, get out

Get up, get out
We’re going to be just fine
Consider this a growing time
It all comes down to you
Baby blue we’ll make it through ok
We’re going to make it our day

To get up, get out

Why did they have to send me on this
Ship, I think I’m sinking and I’m missing
Out on something that is so important to me
So I’m holding on, I’m standing strong
I’ll find a way to carry on
But when you look and find I’m gone
Just remember Daddy’s crying
For his little boy

Why’d I have to waste my life
being away from you, away from you
It’s hard enough to make it as it is
And why’d they have to break me down
When I’m away from you, away from you
Get up and get out
Enjoy your day
We’re going to make it our day

To get up, get out

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Worn

Scarlet lady
Midnight lies
A porcelain mask on your face
You tell your secrets
Through effervescent time
My pretty girl, you’re insane
You wear your heart
Out on your sleeve
Collecting your tears
In a bottle that lies on the shelf
You’ve got me tied up
Twisted in this mess
You’re sure to see it stays the same
And tell your secrets
Through effervescent times
My pretty girl, it’s all the same
You talk about today
Have to think of words to say
Think of ways to fabricate your life
Times they change but still remain the same
I’m still running back today
Times they change
I’m caught running back today
Times they change
You tell your secrets, unfold your lies
Hoping things don’t come undone
It’s just a game girl
of effervescent lies
keep the faith, beat out the rain
Still you talk about that day
All the things we had to say
All the talk about our enemies
And things to come
It’s a battle that I’m
Running back with you
Cold worn
Smoothly
Hold me
Through effervescent times
While I’m awake
Hold me
Soothe me
Let’s go
Because I don’t want
To be saved
I’m still running back today
Times they change
I’m still holding strong today
But times they change

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I’m going to travel out into the snow. I’m not looking forward to the journey that I face. It’s cold, wet and windy. There is nothing to look forward to there. I want to leave soon, but the familiar light and hum of the heater keep me writing, glued to my seat. I’m comfortable here, but know that my place is at home. I can hear my children laughing and see the smile on my wife’s face.

The relentless click clack clicking of my keyboard further entrances me. The soft glow of the monitor makes my eyes heavy. It’s getting warmer in here, now I can’t get up. I want to stay sitting and keep to myself. I need to keep sitting and hide from the cold. I want to stop quiting and continue to hold the bottle close to my heart, it adds edge to my head.

I’m afraid to leave, to get on the road. I wonder if I’ll make it, if the rest of my stories will be told. I’d much rather sit in the comforting heat, listening to the hum of the the heater in the soft, familiar light. All the people have left and I sit here alone, only bothered by the occasional ring of the telephone. The ringing has stopped for quite some time now. The interval between calls has grown as I wait, wondering when the rest of this story will unfold.

I’m ready to leave now, pull the plug and shut down. Time to pack up my bags and head out to the car. I sense it swerving and drifting, being blown by the wind. The snow will feel good, refreshing on my skin, yet still cold and demanding like the baby crying for her mother. I’ll travel out into the night, avoiding the cries. I’ll listen to the wind howling, calling my name. I see the moon and the shadows it casts across the rolling hills of snow. It’s a beautiful daydream , one only I can know.

I’m ready to leave now, to put things away. The gentle hum calms me, the dark light now pushes me away. My family awaits for my unremarkable return. I can see their smiles in my head, as I pack up my things.

I’m going home.

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Time to start posting a bunch of songs on here. I have books upon books of songs I’ve been working on over the past 10 years. It will be good to get them out and about.

Hello my good friend
I’m here to see you once again
Higher and higher I’m climbing
Cause I’m lost
It’s good to see you again
Remembering times when we were friends
Higher and higher on a mountain,
I am lost

Losing your faith in religion, once again
Losing your hopes and your dreams, it just depends
Recall all your abilities, and your difficulties
At your life’s end

So help me my good friend
Please make me whole again
Higher and higher I’m climbing
Lost and found

Higher and higher I’m climbing
Then I’m back again
Back to a time before we were friends
Losing our faith in the government
though we fight for their cause

Please make it disappear
And help me realize
The higher I climb on this mountain
The further I am from myself
At your life’s end

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Walk On

Walk on wild man
Walk away with the rain
Walk on wild man
And hold your head up high
Walk high wild child
Somber sun has soaked through
Carry on wild hearts
With the wild night too
Walk on wild man
Take the day with you this way
Walk on wild one
Let the rain was the day away
Quite and cautious have lingered too long
Wild eyes wander through shimmering song
Carrying on a rebellion with a back pack from the drains
Of tears that walk with wild men
And repent all fears

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For those that haven’t heard of helium.com, it is a writer’s wet dream. It is a very engaging site that is revolutionizing freelancing. It is a great place to share you thoughts and ideas with others, or a way to work on your conquest of the written word. There is an incredible amount of great content on the site, and is highly recommended to the avid reader and writer alike. I wrote this on the spot for a novel excerpt in the field of horror. 20 minutes and no revisions, more to come on this one.

I remember a time not too long ago when I didn’t feel this way. Things were going good for me and I really felt like I’d made a lot of steps in the right direction. For the first time in my life I had my head on straight and was slowly but surely becoming a part of normal society. I had a girlfriend, a good paying job and a dog named Freddie. I was on my way to the American Dream.
That dream, at last, turned into the American Nightmare.

The night was dragging. I couldn’t wait to get home. I firmly believe that a person can only make so many phone calls before losing it just a little bit. I’d been working at the Star Registry for about six months and just recently received a promotion to shift supervisor. The pay was good, the working environment was good, talking to people all day and night was not. If it were up to me, people would have to get a license to have children. That would eliminate some of the rejects that I have to talk to, thus making my job a hell of a lot easier.

I made my final phone call for the night, turned in my required reports and made my way out into the Chicago snow. This winter was brutally cold, and each step I took was accompanied by a slap in the face from the relentless wind. I put my head down and pushed forward towards my apartment, a man on a mission.

Jenny and I had been dating going on a year. It was a a remarkable relationship, the kind that makes the people around you a bit jealous. I really think that we had the intangibles that are required to have a flourishing, rewarding relationship. Tonight was our movie night, a night to cuddle and eat popcorn on the couch. I hurried my step as I inched closer to home, when I noticed an old man, hunched over underneath the frozen street light.

The purple rays bounced off the snow, creating a strange aura around the hunkering old man. As I went to pass him he whipped his head around, and snarled at me in a vicious voice.

“Boy, you face your maker this night”, he said, yellow eyes piercing my soul.
“You’ll fear him, oh you will. Your past is present”.

He quickly whipped back around as I hurried past him. I noticed out of the corner of my eye that the ground around him was red. I looked back for a split second, just long enough to see him gnash his teeth into a quivering, dead rat.

I was shaken up quite a bit. I’d seen some pretty strange things in my life, but that topped it all. I had a bad taste in my mouth, and although it had to be close to 5 below I was sweating like a pig. I made my way up the path to my apartment and couldn’t shake the man’s eyes from my head. I’m sure they were yellow. Just sure of it.

The shaking in my hand was making it pretty difficult for me to get the key into the building door. After a bit of struggling I slid the key in and made my push to exit the wicked cold air that burned my lungs. I pushed forward and ran my chest into the door with a thud.
My key wasn’t working.

I became frantic as I tried again and again to maneuver my useless key into the keyhole. I pounded on the door, expecting someone to let me in, when a woman poked her head out the door from the neighboring building.

“What’s with all the commotion over there?”, she asked pointedly.

“My damn key won’t work”, I answered through and uncontrollable shiver.

“Karen, do you still have the key that Jenny gave you?
Something is up with this key, and I’m freezing to death out here.”

I’m not sure when I noticed it, but I soon realized that this woman was looking at me, through the terrified eyes of a worried stranger. Her demeanor quickly shifted and she started to close the door, surely to never set eyes on me again.

“Hey wait, come on”, I exclaimed. “You still have it, don’t you?”

“Listen guy, I don’t know who you are, but if you don’t get out of here, I’m calling the cops.”
She shut the door with a sudden bang and left me standing in the frigid, unforgiving night.

I sat there for second, dumbfounded. That second felt like an eternity. I ran through my head every possible explanation, every possible scenario. What the hell was going on?

I stumbled around to the back of the building. The wind was blocked a bit, giving me a sweet release from the barrage of icy rain that started to fall while I was playing things over in my mind. I went through the back utility door and made my way up to my apartment.

The light in the hallway was out. A flickering, broken halogen lamp cast shadows across the walls. I couldn’t be certain, but I though for sure I heard the drip drop dripping of water leaking from the walls. The darting shadows were playing tricks on my mind, as I reached for the knob to enter my apartment.

The doorknob was cold, too cold. I turned it with and eerie creak and pushed my door open with caution. The smell hit me like a punch to the stomach, and I gagged a retched heave, covering my mouth and nose with a quickness. The light switch clicked uselessly, so I pulled my lighter of out of my pocket.

Lighting that lighter, seeing what I saw, sent me tumbling forward, catching myself on the hallway banister. There was blood everywhere, it coated everything like a blanket of red madness. My mind was spinning, spiraling out of control. I tried to scream, but couldn’t seem to force the air out of my lungs. I fell to the floor, head in hand, and rocked myself back and forth. Back and forth. I could still see that old man’s wicked yellow eyes in my head. I shook uncontrollably, closed my eyes, and tried to get him out of my head.
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Rain beat down
bloody bargains of truths untold
while murdering a lovers heart
through unfolded blankets.
Crystal rain, methods of man
while looking through
a jagged windowsill of life.
So collect your things
and parry your dreams
but hold close your relationships with them.
For forged memory collapses
with the wicked hearts touch
and wild, blaring dreams are crushed.
Relive the promise; Iron lungs promise
to choke you and bear a burden so great.
That relationships will crumble
and lovers hearts will remember
the time before time
when cheating thoughts overcame
the pain of beckoning fame.

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So ends another day of writing and posting. From this point on I only see good things to come. It’s the only way. I’ve waited so long for this, waited for a time that a true outlet presents itself with conviction. I am fully engaged, and happy with what I’m doing now. Writing is essential to growth. Writing on Blogger and Helium has opened my eyes once again. I am no longer jaded. I am wild eyed and excited about writing again.
Off to recharge, tomorrow is another day.

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Back in the chain gang
Back in the game
Remembering childhood
While living through the pain
Of vivid memories so told
My story did unfold
I concluded that fatherhood
Or lack there of
Forever tainted my soul
So I look back to glory days
Sat in rays of bellowing hope
While the trumpeteers blow
And pinwheel my mind
Where the cold wind blows

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